Why does Gloria try to take away my defenses???

Hi, my name is Shady, and I have inappropriate laughter.

I like to laugh. Is that such a bad thing? Yes, I realize that I sometimes (perhaps often) laugh when I say rather sad things, but does she have to point it out to me all the time? I mean, I do it every week; you'd think she would accept it by now. I laugh because I do find some humor/irony in these "sad" things, and because I don't want to cry. So yes, it is my defense, but stop trying to take it away!!! If you take it away, you better replace it with a pint of Ben & Jerry's.

She tried to take it away twice today. The first time was when I was telling her about how I have difficulty in being fully honest with Eagle Eye (was that the code name we chose?), and I wasn't sure exactly what I would tell him if I tried. Her response: "You laugh as you say that. Is there something uncomfortable in thinking about talking to him?" My response: "I don't know, I just like to laugh." The second time she tried to take it away was when I was talking about my family and said (in a somewhat sarcastic tone), "Yes, sadly, my family is boring and awkward." Her response: "You're saying these pretty sad things but laughing. Do you think that's some kind of defense?" Yes, it's my defense! And stop trying to take it away!

Another funny moment from today's session: I can't remember what she asked me, but when I started to respond I lost my thought. So I said, "I don't know, I just lost my thought." She said, "Where did it go?" I mean, what am I supposed to say to that? South America??? Where do thoughts go when you lose them? I bet they go to the Twighlight zone. (And we come full circle.)

P.S. I finally bought Beyonce's album. SO good.